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Re: A NON-feedee speaks..............
Posted By: Tracy R. <Tracyarts@aol.com> (205.188.192.156)
Date: Tuesday, 21 March 2000, at 1:15 a.m.
In Response To: A NON-feedee speaks.............. (Mendi Teats)
I agree with you that one can very much love themselves and be actively losing weight for whatever reason.
The only things I "loathe" about my body at this size are the complications it causes. Being near 400 pounds is not fun in my reality.
When it got to the point where my ability to lead a normal lifestyle was impaired and I had more "down" time than active time, it was time to do whatever I had to do to speed up the loss so that I could live my life again.
It is sure a hell of a lot better at 390 than it was at 440. And I cannot wait to see 350, 300, and hopefully someday 250. Everytime I think about "accepting" my weight and not following my plan as closely I think of whether that food or blowing off the gym that night is worth a life of wipe sticks, scooters, and chronic skin degradation between massive fat folds.
HELL YES I "loathe" certain aspects of being this size! And immobility scares me to death. And yes, I have personally known people who succumbed to massive gains and have become immobile. I helped care for an immobilized supersized grandmother for a while before she had to be put in a nursing home. It was not pretty. And she was in her '70's. I am still in my 20's. I will not succumb to a diminished lifestyle if I can do anything to possibly prevent it.
I do not loathe myself for being this size, if I did not care, I would not be investing so much time, effort, and resources in going to the gym, getting out and being active, taking my medications, seeing the doctor regularly, and eating as I am supposed to.
I can loathe being this size but not loathe myself.
And what is wrong with loathing your circumstances if it motivates you to change them? If we are complacent and do not care, then why put forth the effort?
"Self-loathing" and loathing one's circumstances are 2 different things indeed. There are many fat people who do truly loathe themselves and do not care about themselves enough to try and change anything. Then there are us who loathe what fatness has done to our particular life-situations and in a desire to improve and change those life-situations use that loathing as fuel to motivate us to work to affect a change.
And if you like things just as they are and are happy, then peachy.
And if you would like to be fatter, then peachy too.
But it is not a bad thing to want to be less fat or even average sized.
We all have our life goals.
Tracy